.Wednesday, November 22, 2006 ' 6:24 AM Y
Chpt 4
Am i that bad?? Haixx.... Yes, i n0e u're all hurt ab0ut me rite? Bout wud i did,
bout my wrong doings in the past. I'm bad... i'm worse then that. But, shld i think bout my own needs or shld i tink bout u? But i cant lie myself. rite? Its my life. I have the rights to make mistakes n leran from it. yea...
DTA. i n0e wud u meant. I n0e. Dun act like i'm all clueless b0ut it. U're mad at me. N still are. Haix... Ppl made mistakes but i cant. =( I dun want u t0 get hurt but in return, i dun wanna feel hurt t00... I n0e u are hurt n i n0e, its me who did it. But i didnt mean to. S0metimes, i felt regrets in myself kn0wing u in the 1st place but part of me said dat, i'm LUCKY to kn0w u in my life. Im c0nfused... i am... really... I never felt dis c0nfused bef0re. I wanna luv u but im scared. I'm scared to hurt u more... n, to hurt u again. I wanna be free like a bird... I want to b l0ved but i n0e i dun deserve it.
I'm s0rry... i'm s00 bad. I
HATE myself n i n0e the hatred in urself are caused by me. U hate me. right? i n0e... U're hiding it, again... I n0e u regret knowing me. Are we fated together? 0r is it some sort of like, "challenge"? i hate dis. I n0e, u hate it more then me. I want punishments from u. I deserve it. I need to faced it c0z... i caused it to happen. IM FOOLISH... IM STUPID...
ARGHH.... haixx.......................
